#5

no one told me how easy it actually is to get your hands on substances after being led on for so long that the difficulty is all within finding them rather than the part where you deal with an addiction, not a soul prepped me for this part of life but i have no one to blame but myself. it gets so bad at times that i am found restless without a proper day of rest in what feels like forever now. time doesn’t exist while high and i guess that’s the one thing that makes me miss it most. how easy it could knock me out but now im this mess with insomnia withering into me. i just want to be at peace and wake up without all the grogginess, it’s a different form i’ve never felt before.